Oh, I actually thought of you today
And I almost called
To say a lot of things
To say I am proud you got a chance
To say I am sorry
To say I have missed us and our moments
To say let’s start from where we left off
To say you have missed a lot of my stories
But I didn’t have the courage to dial your number
I just kept postponing our conversations
I always have you in mind but…
These “but’s” have a way of stealing my Joy
I almost called…
To rectify our difference
To make you feel better again with my words of encouragement
To spice up your day with my silky voice
To reignite your spirit
But I never did
Could it be pride that keeps interfering?
I know I should have at least called just to say a word or two
I hope you know I miss you
I won’t shrink back to tell it to your face- but I know you can sense it and how my life is empty without you in it.
Everytime I use the Kasoa-Mallam interchange, I remember our silly little fights and what could have been
I remember how you used to buy bananas and eat all in the trotro
The things you did with your arms around my shoulders when you sense I am nervous
Your constant stealing of glances at me when I am not looking
I know I don’t have a right to ask, but do crave Jollof all the time?
Do you still sleep without bathing after close of work?
I finally got my old flame back and I am not going back to my former. You should be here to see
Sometimes I hear you laughing and saying “yesss” (just like how you imitate your boss) my mind’s ear;
It creeps up so suddenly on me that I can’t help but just freeze.
Last night I dreamt about you and our last spree
It was one of a kind;
When I woke up, I thought about what we had,
And what could have been,
And whether or not to dial your number
Believe me, Jessica. I almost called..
To a long lost friend.
Anytime someone’s image pops in mind, give that friend a call. You may never know when is the last time…