BEFORE CHAPTER XXVII

6p.m at Kokrobite Beach Resort

It’s funny how I am sitting here at the Kokrobite beach Resort all alone with the waves screaming at me “Girl, how are you feeling in general about this new chapter”?

Nervous

Anxious

Gratified

Hungry and yearning for more

I have typed, retyped and deleted this post and many others I felt it wasn’t worth reading.

I have questioned my sanity and pinched myself so many times.

I have felt good about myself for a gesture of yesterday and for an honour bestowed upon several times.

I have teared and hugged myself because none was around to feel my warm embrace.

I have hated myself so many times when they say “oh, you are too calm, composed, cool and collected- not flexible.

I have loved and lost, disappointed and pained greatly.

However, my faith in God never changed

“God never brought me this far to let me go”- this line always hits me when I get discouraged.

I often reflect on the person I was in my early 20’s and I honestly don’t recognize me anymore. I felt scared to potentially take the wrong path in life and end up in some dead end I didn’t like. Thankfully that isnโ€™t the case whatsoever, and I have not only proved to myself, but those also around me that you can find happiness in what you do. Sadly, I never go back the kind of happiness I deserved. I have pretty much been hard on myself and neglected the best for myself.

4th September ๐Ÿ’œ

Things have been eating me up these past few days, weeks, months, years. It’s absurd how life takes a different turn one minute and the next minute things begin to look blurry. My only place of solace and regeneration is my blog, God, and a few male friends who have sworn to talk to me till I fall asleep on my bad days. (I appreciate the love and comfort).

I have experienced unrequited love and for months now, sleep refuses to make it’s way successfully. I have questioned my sanity and felt like I amounted to no good. Evenings became more lonelier like the face of an owl. I always will call on some trusted friends pour my heart out, cry inwardly and lie to my hollow heart; it’s fine girl, you have got this!

It wasn’t! I just needed a hug and someone to assure me I definitely wasn’t going crazy. It was a face of life every young adult struggles with and that it will certainly pass. I overwork myself, sit at the shore alone, talk to myself, it wasn’t just working! I just couldn’t come to terms with the fact that someone who cared about you now ignores and sees you as a total stranger.

So today, 4th September, a new chapter brings… I rummage through my heart, search through my inner self, and I came out with:

Forgiving myself first

Forgetting the past- Even though it’s hard. It’s real hard forgetting about my loss, a heart-break, an unrequited love, disappointment, and a lot I keep harbouring inside.

Living an intentional life and being happy regardless of whatever life threw at me.

Loving myself- I have struggled with this a lot.

Listen to this song ๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡

Reckless love of God by Cory Asbury

MY 2019 STORY

#My 2019 Story.

I readily agreed because I wanted to inspire others with my journey.

Of all the years, 2019, has been a memorable one. I call it my year of daring and breaking of bounds. I had lots of plans, thankfully majority of them were realized through sweat, tears, smiles and every single minute, God came through for me even when I didnโ€™t deserve it. It was a miracle most of the time. I shared testimonies and inspired people through my journey in blogging.

1. I successfully started my journey in blogging with the help of a Colleague. I will always be grateful to Prince Kwakye for his immerse support and contribution towards this journey of mine. Days prior, I never dreamt of getting a new laptop for my write-upโ€™s and for work. You see, it was God there. He always bring wonderful people to me to either teach me a lesson or make a positive or negative impact in my life. Keep reading and following more on a Poetess Akosuaโ€™s blog for new and exciting pieces.

2. Years ago, I always found solace in my room either brooding on the past, present or what the future holds. But God made me understand that I shouldnโ€™t be anxious about anything rather trust in his words. This mentality got me stepping out of my comfort zone to either explore nature or meet new people.

2019 made me more spontaneous and outgoing. I had lots of fun and did new things. Notable one that got me was helping to plan a stage performance, wedding ceremony, celebrating my bestie on her birthday, surprising couple of friends who share the same passion and a lot of fun activities with my favourite people. Wish I could do that over and over again.

3. My fantasy of having to work in a corporate world came to past with the help of God. I had my one year National Service at Parliament of Ghana. The experience was an overwhelming one. It gave me the chance to do a lot of writing, editing and typing. Now, I can say for sure I type very fast. I loved it there at Parliament and will always have fond memories of senior members and fellow colleagues. The experience gave me the chance to learn tolerance, explore, and meet new people.

4. I donโ€™t know if this is a miracle or just one of the normal things a young lady has to go through at a point in life. But I have gained a lot of weight and currently, your girl weighs 54.5kg. Last year, was horrific and depressing back in school. I told myself, I will pay attention to my body, looks and how I carry myself. I ate well and didnโ€™t skip breakfast. Mind you, I love to eat. I am thankful to God for this massive transformation. God did it again!

5. I hardly blog about my relationship with the opposite sex but something happened this year. And I have learnt lessons from it. To learn that friendship comes naturally and there is no need to rush or force it.

Even though I wish things would go back to its normal state, I just canโ€™t change and I will have to accept it this way. It was not a smooth experience for me but God has been faithful. And it tells me I still have courage within but I need to be open minded about sensitive issues like this. Regardless, it made me stronger and tells me I have a lot of psyching to do. I broke the rules of caging my words and letting go. It was real hard dealing with it.

6. I got the chance to learn from Kwesi Pratt and Justice Appiah of Pan African Television Station. I learned about reporting and news writing, how to operate the technical devices at a television station. It was an overwhelming experience.

7. I got a well-paid job! Whoop! Whoop! We definitely need to celebrate this miracle. Just let me know the time and day so we do some dancing and popping of champagne. God did it again. His ways arenโ€™t mine and thoughts arenโ€™t mine. He gave me a testimony to share with all. Months ago, I was pensive in thoughts and kept asking myself โ€œwhatโ€™s next for me after national service?โ€ I realized God was preparing something for me. You see, he works in miraculous ways that we canโ€™t comprehend. After being bombarded with questions at the interview with six panels, I concluded this was one of my worst moments but it turned out to be one of my many testimonies.

8. I had to stop and ask myself “Why the sudden demise”? I lost my friend and classmate! ๐Ÿ˜ฃ This really broke my heart and left me shattered. Life is never fair! May she rest in peace!

9. September, the 9th month, my birth month. Every 4th September, I celebrate Godโ€™s blessings for my life. This I do quietly in my room either watching movies, going to the beach side (my favourite place) or listening to my favourite songs and planning my next step in life. But this year, September didnโ€™t go as planned. All my plans for my birthday was unfulfilled. I can only pray and keep my fingers crossed for another fun in 2020. Hopefully, I will surely get to really enjoy a birthday I have always dreamt of.

10. I started writing my book this year and hopefully next year, I will be publishing it! You know the wave of I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I’m down that hits you out of nowhere? This story got me wallowing in grumpiness, self-pity and indifference. But how I got out and found myself is a mystery…

11. I conquered my fear of heights this year. The feeling is unexplainable. I can say for sure that I am a girl who is going to do big things and cannot let little things or trivial issues get to her!

12. One thing I failed to do this year is to give myself a chance to love again ๐Ÿ˜‚ scared huh? Or so not part of my plans this year? We’re not in a haste or hurry. Marriage can wait but mummy says you should reconsider and pray about your decisions.

13. Let’s talk about finances and savings. I guess I did great by saving…yeah. but the problem was my consistent buying of heels! !!!๐Ÿ™ˆ I couldn’t just see a heel and pass by.

14. An opportunity came by this year and God made it possible! I will be telling another testimony soon ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜!

To those asking why the sudden transformation? God saw me through my bad and good moments and he said it was time to get up and focus on myself and his promises.

I’m a storyteller and a living Testimony!

Waiting for 2020 ! Like this…

I Can’t Do Without Them!

Hey loves, July came quickly and gradually 2019 will be coming to a stand still. Thank you all so much for reading and sharing thoughts on my posts.

WELCOME TO POETESS AKOSUA’s BLOG๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿพ

I encountered a rather talkative driver in a “Troski” who kept asking questions about myself.So Iโ€™ve decided to share some of the most random things about me…

1. Call me Linda Amoni- And let’s just say, I’d want to maintain it as it is.

2. I know I don’t look my age but 24 sure looks good on me if you ask. Constantly, I would have to convince people of this. Same way, we can’t stop the wind from blowing, we can’t also stop people from insinuating.

3. I am a Ghanaian. Born on a Sunday. September will always remain my favorite month ๐Ÿ˜‚

4.I would rather wear my natural hair or have my hair in braids.Weave ons are great but not really my thing. I sometimes do try them.

5. I love walking to not so far places. You would always find me taking “Troski”, but when I am very late for work or a function, I fall on Uber and Taxi.

6. You would mostly find me in a knee length skirt or Dress. Trousers and shorts would be for outing.

7. I have been using shea butter for my skin for years and God knows when I am going to stop ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ˜‚

8. I love to smile, say funny things and sometimes keep a straight face. ๐Ÿคท

9. I love movies (adventurous ones), Reading and writing will always be an addiction.

10. I love working and I feel itchy when I don’t get to achieve anything in a Day. I don’t really know if it’s a curse ๐Ÿ˜‚

11. I take a lot of photos,not always of myself though.Sometimes itโ€™s of nature,people,moments etc.

12.I love mangoes. Big Mangoes to be precise…just can’t do without it.

13. I love to travel; new environments excite me,but I sometimes get bored when I don’t see myself with the right people. Trust me, when I feel comfortable and get acclimatize with the environment and people, you will find me fooling around and going all out of my shell.

14. I love candies and sweets or chocolate ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ™Š

15. I have changed a lot in terms of looks and physic and I think it’s a good start. (Thank God!) Normally, I would jog in the morning and make sure I sweat before taking shower.

16. The most simple things can make my day.

17. I prefer Lipton tea with no milk and little sugar plus bread. This is my favorite breakfast.

18. Where my United Fans at? ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ even though I don’t know much about football and most players, I love the game! You will always find me screaming and yelling and clapping with this.

19.My two favourite colours are blue and Cream.

20.African print is my thing! Not really of a Corporate person.

21.For the past years I have constantly wore bracelet(beads) and would always love it, if it’s from a family member or friend. Reminds me of good times.

22.I love Banku or Kenkey with Okro stew or Pepper with grilled Tilapia. Can’t do without it. (itโ€™s a meal made with fermented corn and cassava dough).I can eat it everyday.

23. I love my family so much and mostly make few friends. I’m not so much of someone who keep friends for a long time.

24. You will probably see me in the company of guys. I roll with them more and easily (not my fault… I get to learn, be myself, laugh a lot and tap ideas)

25. My love for heels though.

26. I love to sleep on two pillows and you dare not take one from me๐Ÿ˜Ž

27. Stickers on walls… Geezzzz… Just don’t take them off! I love them. I’ve got plenty of them in my room.

28. You will find me yawning in the afternoon and most active working or doing frivolous stuffs in the evening or morning.

29. I love carrying Kids and I’m touchy. (forgive me) learning to stop the latter. It’s annoying I know…

30. I’m quiet; but I talk a lot when we both make the conversation interesting and not one sided. In the midst of people, I prefer to keep my opinions to myself, especially when I know it won’t be appreciated or I might be communicating with the wrong audience.

31. Candles! I love to see them burn throughout the night. Find it refreshing.

32.My favourite Bible verse is

Isaiah 62:6-7

“Pray day and night, continually. Take no rest, all you who pray to the Lord. Give the Lord no rest until he completes his work.AMEN”

33. I love worship and praise songs in local Ghanaian languages. Min. Joe Mettle is currently my favorite. I’m just feeling that dude and his voice.

34. I love serene and picturesque views and my favorite place remains the beach side. My favorite hangout place!

35. I use Brown lipstick and sometimes Red(depending on the occasion). Make-up is not really my thing but I try to look good on occasions and to work.

36. I love talking to myself most of the time. Sometimes I speak words of encouragement to myself when I’m down.

37. I love Cats.

38. My favorite perfume is “Far away”

39. Accessories aren’t really my thing

40. Currently, my favorite quote is “You have come a long way, don’t let little things derail you from your goals. Regardless, pursue and fight till you win!”

Welcome to July my loves!

Thank you for being a part of my blogging journey.

God bless you.

Love,

Akosua.

Please tell me something interesting about yourself in the comment section below. Let’s get interactive!

I finally said “Yes”

I had no choice than to say “Yes” to this challenge. Kwesi, a fan of Poetessakosua’s blog referred me to my previous articles and challenged me to take this adventure with him.

Personally, I have a phobia for heights. So quickly, I questioned the essence of this. Don’t get me wrong. Tim Lahaye author of “Why you act like the way you do” affirms that, Melsan Temperament will question everything and would want to be given reasons why one should do this or that. I just needed to question the essence of this High Rope obstacles course.

He asked “When was the last time you faced a fear squarely? If my memory serves me right, you once said in “Trailblazer” you were bold and yeah! It’s time to test it”

But of course, i needed to prove that I am bold and the next time you catch me advising or motivating someone not to give up but rather go the extra-mile to achieve a goal, overcome insurmountable obstacles, then you should know I have been in that shoes before.

Today, i did something I never thought I’d do. It was not even on my plans for this holiday. Never in my wildest dreams!
Since it’s a holiday, I took a long nap in bed listening to songs to uplift my spirit after my quiet time. I tried so hard to complete an article but I guess I was caught up with laziness.

Occasionally, if I have no plans for a holiday, I would quickly think of something beneficial to do or a fun activity to shake off the boredom just to avoid Granny from nagging ๐Ÿ˜‚

Kwesi, head of the Brave heart team prompted me to get ready and change into something shorts or tight. (I so much hate shorts and snickers on an outing ๐Ÿ˜‚)

I have actually been to Legon Botanical Gardens a couple of times with Church friends and with relations before. We did try the canopy walk and the abseiling of the Vaughan Dam.

I swore on countless times never to try the scariest of them all “High Rope obstacle course” and would virtually give up in the process. Growing up, I realize I have gone through hell in life before and I know how it feels to be faced with huge obstacles. Overcoming obstacles isn’t an easy task in life. So this was somewhat a way to prove to my inner self that no matter the situation, I can’t give up yet and that life will definitely present a lot of challenges.

The “Ohh” “Arrrrrggghhh” “๐Ÿ˜ฅAjeeeeeiiii” ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜ฅthe screams and moans made me feel this is the end of it all. At a point I felt like going back but he assured me I was 100% in safe hands and we were all going to do this together. I was scared trust me. After seeing some people descend the rope and land in, my inner spirit told me if they could do it, what shows I can’t possibly do it! I, however, finally said yes to this challenge.

“The dawn will come but remind yourself of how strong you are and how far you have been able to carry yourself. Then you will learn that you are stronger than what you think you are.” – Neskine

A big hug to all my new readers and to the ever faithful day ones, thank you for always reading my post and sharing your thoughts in the Comment Section.

Love.

Akosua

xoxo ๐Ÿ˜˜ ๐Ÿ˜˜

Images: Legon Botanical Gardens site and personal images.

Put your best foot Forward

“Ohui”, it sounds funny when you mistakenly pronounce it without the Ga-Adangbe accent. For the fear of being neglected and made mockery at while growing up, I personally decided not to add “Ohui” to my middle name.

The name “Ohui” is the name given to the first female child by some part of Ga-Adangbe . Names such as “Ofoe, Akutu, Ogboo, Awo, Dede, etc” tells of which clan in Ada one belongs to. I am an Ada and I speak the Ga-Adangbe language very well. I also speak Ga and Krobo too. I love and respect my culture and would wish people would stop segregating and making divisions because one is not an/a “Ewurama, Aisha, Kwame, Kekeli, Mohammed, Hamdala, Naa Kwarley, Ashokor, etc”

“Etornam and I were getting to know each other better after a hangout. We exchanged contacts and decided to give it a shot. He was thrilled and so was I. He tells his parents he has found a lady and was getting to know her more. His parents then decided to probe more into the news. “Where is she from?”

Somehow, I always knew by the mere mention of my middle name, people would start asking questions like Etornam’s parents. The only time my Granny said anything concerning my choice of partner was when she forbade me not to bring an Ewe to the family (You know Old people and their funny insinuations). I always concluded she had her own motive for saying that.

Years back, I remember making a promise to myself never to marry a man from my tribe. You know what they say about them when it comes to arguments ๐Ÿ˜‚ or perhaps it could be a personality discord. When I cast my mind back to girl talks I used to have with my- I call them “The girls” (Female friends), we would talk about men from the various regions. I recall my roommate; a northerner telling me about their men. They are very hardworking and owned GIGANTIC penises.๐Ÿ˜Ž

Some also said Fante men were lazy so they were so not interested. And this gist wasn’t from my girls alone. Male friends also swore that Women from Ga-Adangbe and Krobo’s are the sweetest and I am sure you know what that means. Of course…๐Ÿ˜ They are good in bed and they (men) know what the beads does to them in bed. Abi you know that saying is true…But, what is the point here..

As a learned person, I sometimes try to make people understand that in this 21st century, we need to tolerate varied cultures and this objective could be achieved by mutual understanding. it is the duty of everyone to contribute his/her quota of the battle of tribalism.

We should, however, encourage inter-tribal marriages.
As young adults, most of our parents would still want to interfere in our choices. They would want you to attend their Alma mater because, it’s a family tradition, marry from a particular tribe because they did same and feel it’s the best decision, be with a particular kind of class or take up a particular kind of profession because, it’s undeniably the best that can put food on the table.

But will you put your best foot forward and say “No” to them anytime they suggest to you because you are an adult? Or you will go with them because it’s a lineage that needs to be passed on from tradition to tradition?If an Akan man should marry a Ga or Ewe, their children traditionally will be lost because, they don’t belong anywhere and might not get support from family members, friends or the society when hardship sets in. Studies have shown that inter-tribal marriages have lower support from family members and many would go to their

hometown to marry their kind, secretly or openly to please extended family. You would find Ghanaian marriages in so many permutations and ask why people are aggressive to see their children marry a particular tribe.

For me, the most important thing is, parents should rather make enquires about whether there’s some kind of Sickness, negative attitude that runs in the family of the potential husband or wife of their children rather than institutionalizing marriage for them. Such endogamy is pure tomfoolery which might not yield well if care is not taken.

Tribalism has led to unhappy marriages and ingredients which is the prerequisite for a good marriage has been neglected. I quickly asked, “So does our inability to speak a particular language (Whether Twi, Ewe, Nzema, Dagomba, Ga-Adangbe, Sisala, Akuapem, Fante, you just name them make us less a marriageable material? And it will amaze you the kind of parents who do that; people who have gone to schools and have had degrees upon degrees still wear their old raggy ideas and still stand painstakingly by their words.

Some give excuses like “We cannot travel far to see our in-laws or these tribe eh they are something else and excuses upon excuses…My thoughts exactly, “The next time I mention “Nana Kojo, Korkor, Mohammed, Tetteh, Kofi, Naa Amerley, Aku, Nii” please don’t give me that awkward look and don’t think twice about whether or not you are making a good choice of a tribe.

ยฉMay 2019

Trailblazer: Mother’s Day!

Time, they say will heal me and every passing day I hope to see his face one more time. Now more than ever, I miss him more than every passing day and I wish I would go weeks, months and years without thinking and standing in front of my mirror to ask myself “Daddy why so soon”

Dad

“You’ll stop crying after few days and months and you won’t miss him that much more” But they lied. I just want to tell him he has left me in the hands of strength and courage. Nene Amoakoto II did leave me and siblings in the hands of a Hairstylist who had to endure hardness and insurmountable challenges daily. I’m the hairstylist daughter who learnt how to make maize flour to be sold, the charcoal woman’s daughter who is unstoppable.

Mum in her hay days

When I look into her eyes all I see is Resilience and courage to continue in the face of rejection and frustration. Close friends say, I inherited my strength and boldness from her and my other half from my Dad. A mixture of the two made me a Trailblazer and a Pioneer.

“Wala p3 k3k3 ni wo fo)” meaning, what matters is we have life and that’s everything. So when faced with challenges, just smile and tell yourself this is so not permanent. God is in control. She’ll remark…

What’s my secret? : These exact Words

Cooking

Yesterday, as I was preparing for a Youth Fellowship, she sat watching and reminding me every step of the way. She advised “When you go, and the ladies are cooking; watch, help and don’t just be an observer. Learn their ways and style of cooking, add it to what you already know and it will always be relevant to you one day. And this saying hit me hard… Because I’m always eager to show people what I know about what my mama taught me about a meal.

Reminds me of a dish I prepared in school( Banku with Kontomire Stew) The mere thought of some female friends who probably didn’t know my culture or let me say a different kind, made mockery of it. I was hurt and quickly had to call her to be sure if I’d make a mistake in the combination of food. Blutantly, Mama said, “Let them make mockery. They don’t know what they’re missing”

Relationship

She’ll always say, Look beyond having a man who is attractive and has money at his disposal. Look beyond all the luxuries and gifts. When you meet your man, don’t look out for these things even though it’s necessary. May God bless you with one who will share your thoughts and dreams.

Mum and Dad… ๐Ÿ˜ love

One who will walk with you through life’s journey. You have the right body shape and type any man would want to have. But always remember where you are coming from and where you want to go. Take care of this beautiful creation, treat it well and wait patiently for your Man.
Respect the man who will come into your life. May humility and courage to face each day one at a time be your hallmark. Emulate the woman in Proverbs 31 and don’t slack when you find a good man. Make an impact in his life and both fight for your Salvation.

Faith and Prayers

Love God as if it all depends on you. And obey his commandments for in that, you will find eternal life and peace. Every word of God is true and it is a shield to all who come to him for protection.

Humans can’t provide your needs. The provider is God so let prayer be your lifestyle and emulate a good life.

Good company.

She’ll say “My hay days wasn’t a bore;the fun part and excitement grew more when I met your dad. Even though Dad was the reserved type, this blend of personality made our home lively until death laid it’s icy hands on him. We’d walk along the coast and make promises to each other. We’d make friends and laugh out loud. She’ll always say, “Your silence and reserved nature reminds me of your Dad” learn to go out, meet new people, dress up, look good, change a hairstyle, and pamper your beautiful self.

Friends of the Hairdressers Association.

In doing so, be mindful of the friends you have and would make along life’s Journey. Roll with people who have Vision and make an impact in the life of the young and old. Make people miss your presence and let them wish “If Lynda were here, things would have been different, we would have made this happen”

Mrs Gladys Chianke Amoni -Apreku, You’re the best poet who wrote me.

Mum & Me